Thursday, January 15, 2015

Fears and Lessons - Part 1

Meeting is delayed... finally some time to blog!

I always say people come into your life for a reason. I truly believe it. No matter what the outcome of your few minute long exchanges or few year old relationships, whether they are positive or negative, a lesson is always learned.

I knew from a very young age that I wasn't bad at singing and that I absolutely loved it. While I used to have private concerts in front of my mirror day in and day out, every minute I was home, I was terrified of performing in front of people. I always thought "what if I mess up?", "what if I'm not as good as I think I am?", "what if they make fun of me?", "what if, what if, what if"! Two little words that can hold you back: what if. I hated having those thoughts but they were stronger than me. I couldn't control them or get rid of them.

Until a couple of years ago, I would cringe every time my friends put me on the spot to sing at gatherings. I just wanted to hide under a table. I was TERRIFIED! What a silly emotion to go through when you're actually investing time and money on lessons, and perfecting your technique, and when singing is something you naturally do anyway every minute of the day... until you're asked to sing in front of others.
Terrified or not, I was so thankful to them for doing that. It felt so good afterwards, to get feedback from them and to have faced that fear. Did you read that? It felt good to get feedback from them... I never got any negative comments from anyone, and was told about a million times that I was good, but I still needed to hear it. Every time, it was as if I was hearing that for the first time. Weird!
I'll forever be grateful to those special few who wouldn't give up and kept asking me to sing even though I would say no for like 20 to 30 minutes before I would actually get the courage to start.

That still didn't get me up on stage. Until...

To be continued!

Wednesday, January 15, 2014

New Year, New Plans and a Set of Balls

Here we go again... It's a new year, plans are laid out, schedule is already booked with projects in February, March and April. There's so much I want to achieve and I already feel like there's a lack of time... WE'RE ONLY IN JANUARY!

Breathe... It will all be ok, everything will fall into place just like it always does... because this year, you've got some "big balls" just like Tanya says (sorry mom)!


This year will be different, bigger and better than last year. I'm no longer afraid of whatever my monsters were. I'm glad I've overcome them.

Let's make the best out of it!

Meeting time...

Talk to you later universe!